My Very First Tournament.

there was a taekwondo tournament held at the stadium likas badminton place (if that's what you call it) last weekend.
my very first tournament after about 4 years of being in taekwondo. i know, right??
well, i got bronze for some reason, although i lost in my first fight..

yeah, i don't get it either.
i don't even know who i fought, let alone where she's from (apologies). in fact, i didn't know anything i was completely blank.

maybe that's why i lost, my heart wasn't in it. not that i'm any good to begin with.
hahaha.

anyway, i wasn't in the mood to fight or anything, owing to the fact that.. well, something happened. maybe that's why i actually even forgot to be nervous i was so caught up in the moment. haha.

well, at least now we're okay =)
but just for the record, i'm keeping my distance this time. i'm not gonna make the same mistake i already made in the past. sure, i love you and all and i was freaking my life out there, but.. i just don't wanna hurt anymore. yeah, how selfish am i being..?

but let's face the fact : you don't want me, let alone need me. not the way i wanted and needed you (notice the past tense?). of course i still wanna be friends and all, you meant the world to me so of course i'm not gonna let you go just like that. yes, i'm terribly sorry for all your time i wasted and all the pain i've inflicted. i really do wish we could go back to the time where nothing could tear us apart, when we were so.. together.

well, this just goes to show that things change, and people change.